eligible for the Korean GI Bill and continue my college education without having any obligation towards my parents. (2) to be free to travel and accumulate money with which to buy the wardrobe I so desperately needed. Of course, I was soon to see that in the Air Force I was further away from my goal of pursuing femininity than ever before. Now all my privacy was eliminated. How- ever, I bought a second hand car, and for the first time blushed and blustered my way through a buying session at a ladies apparel shop for my "wife". I bought my first slip, sweater, skirt, bra and playtex girdle and drove into the back row of a drive in movie to try them on. The fit was perfect, I really felt like a girl. My whole being was changed and I felt born again.

This went on for many months and I accumulated more and more feminine apparel. Soon, I was transfer- red and I had to sell the car, so the clothes went into a city refuse container and I was heartbroken. Now I was going overseas to Japan, away from America, to who-knows-what, and I couldn't take any of the clothes

I loved so well.

On the trip over and for the first few months in Japan I was pretty despondent. I drifted from bar to bar, and girl to girl, imitating the traditional GI be- havior in a foreign country. However, the urge to be my feminine self was now stronger than ever, and only a strange quirk of fate unleashed my feminine side to the world. I was caught one day going through the dresser drawers of a Japanese girl that I was going with at the time. She wanted to know what it was all about. And, for the first time in my life I told another human being my story. (Some of the joys of my Japanese ex- periences were told in #9, an earlier edition of this publication.)

For two years, I lived a twin existence. The most complete that I have ever lived, before or since. In the daytime I was a flyer, a cocky American Airman. During the evening and on holidays and leaves my fem- inine side blossomed as I never dreamed it would. I had a separate being and she now had a name, ANN RANDALL; nationality, AMERICAN DEPENDENT, who employed a Japanese woman named Chieko as a house- keeper, maid and handmaiden. For two years, it was

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